I guess there is no wrong time to introduce someone in life who, even as I look at it now, was very important to me.

I don’t fully understand why he feels so important to me, but I think it’s because he was like the only older brother figure I ever truly had in life.

He always seemed like the coolest kid to me; I don’t know if it was because he was always stealing his mom’s car, getting a chick pregnant, or just seeming like a badass that made him so appealing as a kinda role model to me.

My cousin Jason just got the shit end of the stick. I don’t think he ever had a chance with the way things rolled out for him. He was always hanging with the gangs, then got older and urged me not to, or at least told me, “Oh shit, no, don’t hang with THAT gang, they are too weak compared to _____.”

He also taught me that if I don’t have a condom, I can use a plastic grocery bag and a rubber band. Yes, he really taught me that. You can see why he got three chicks pregnant lol.

I think my family was just full of fucked up kids lol. Maybe it was genetic or something.
When I was about 8 or 9 and we lived in Copperas Cove, Texas, he came to visit me and Aunt Susie.

I can’t exactly remember very much except for stomping out fire ants hills, climbing on the roof of the school, and lighting a lot of stuff on fire.

But I do remember it was just such an incredible feeling. Those days emanate warmth in my soul that I feel every time I even think about it.

It’s so crazy, why does that stick with me so much? I find myself just feeling that feeling of that time and place very often, yet I don’t even remember much of it. It just makes me smile. Maybe because he was like my older brother, like my first REAL friend I trusted because we were related.

Jason was in and out of jail for stuff I’m not even going to mention. But I can tell you that the entire time I have been working as an artist, I have kept him in my heart and mind. I want to be able to help him when he gets out of jail. He has been in there for YEARS over stuff that is stupid af and he shouldn’t even be locked up for.